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Monday, April 19, 2010
It's been a very long time since I updated my blog... I have many things that I can update and share over the past month but I am too drained to do so. Reason: Next paragraph---
There are many mistakes I have made in life, but none surpass this mistake that I made on 1st April 2010 when I pen my signature down on the contract.
Out of pressure of income and desperate for a job, I impulsively signed my name on the dotted line which as the weeks came along brought flashbacks of the past experience that is now haunting the "trying to turn things around" mood.
The flashbacks of being the amount of effort that may equate to nothing when is all said and done can be well the very reason why I left the previous job.
It can be quite a mentally straining thing to uphold the "no-pressure" and all I receive back home is nothing but lectures of myself being unable to take the pain when what I really am looking for is some encouragment.
I simply do not like effort to be overshadowed entirely by result only.
Effort= Objection handling, making the number of calls (about 150 daily) Required= 2 sales daily quota (not by quality ratio) which is defintely a challenging task. Performance= Sales ONLY (notice the effort is not there)
I have been feeling so stupid ever since a few days ago, finding out the stability on the job. Confidence thrashed, not a tinge of motivation for sales plus with the leaders dilly-dallying me by not starting my work, I have been entertaining these useless thoughts in my head which is making me so demoralized.
Wonder what is my motivation factor on the job? DAMN IT! The mere pressure for the sake of income from the family make lost sight on control over the job. With that said, I will still take responsibility of what happened to hope I can seek a form of revelation of this messed up issue.
Will post the month happenings on another post...not now...too disgusted with my stupidity.
