Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me,
Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee;
Sounds of the rude world heard in the day,
Lull'd by the moonlight have all pass'd away
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Friday, December 18, 2009
Is it just me being sensitive or am i too overly concerned over u feeling down...? why is it that since young just because whenever i hear this words "dun ask me, i am just feeling unhappy", i will start to feel uneasy and have the thoughts that i did not do my part as a friend especially when is someone that maybe i hold a torch for. I know i am not the possessive type, but i just get very jumpy being not able to make my friend happy and in the end while in the name of being concern and cheering my friend up, i "accidentally" annoy him/her. i do apologize if i did whoever you are past or present... :)
I learn many things through the failures and hope to pick up along the way,i know results are there but is taking way too long to materialize.
I wanted to be honest,open and especially courageous to my feelings yet the past will tell me of the losses that i have incurred.Have i really not lose anything by not doing anything?
Well on a high note,the career path for the long-term is being set up for me by many people and maybe taking off soon and that i still need to get thorough this transition period with this vague (close to nothing) result. I thank all those seniors who has been "fighting" for me without me using my diploma and a proper resume. HAHA this is singapore, where in the world can someone land on jobs so easily like me. i am so lucky but the price to pay is commitment and effort.
Speaking of commitment, be it basketball or a girlfriend(trying to jio 1), i always try my very best in training for basketball or getting to know her better with the reason i don't want to let my skills down or hurt the gal just simply cause i don't know her well(this part takes lots of time though,i SWEAR!)
2009 flashbacks made me came up with that much thoughts though i tried to summarise. is a much faster year like what HB said(i agree, ns 2 years feels damn long that anything after ns is juz like jamming the accel of a WRX STi)<---can i have euro-r haha???
514 jan--XF team started, good to see weisheng since 888 feb-may---cork up training,my issues with jiahui and eunice(tears came off since meiqi stunt with darren) june-aug---peaceful months of controlled bball and 3 days of cork driving sept-now---don't care, play my own bball,what is bball with not so cool ppl rite? ^_^ dec----chalet with them,learn dota
Work jan-jul---only 3 big cases with FYC at most avg 950+ had small cases along the way aug-now---admin asst work at sungei kadut --- quite a number of travel sold and done a vehicle(finally after so many quotations) --- finally getting some renewal comm to come in(muz stay on in ins) Though alot of KIV cases, i hope to be able to close them asap if not the $200k FYP might give some problem. But then again,rapport is more important than pushing sales. Just strike a balance
Personal 1) I damn sure need to get back my 2k... 2) I damn sure must give her some breathing space although i can be her side 3) Get rid of the ps3 and get the in-between earnings (YAY!!!!!) 4) I need to take care of my health (Clearing 1,2,3 will help alot though health is top priority ^^ 5) Since somebody mentioned to me that i am a systematic person,prove it through my room
2010 resolutions, I won't be needing them 'coz none has been fulfilled before so therefore i will just use back the old ones.
1)Career--hope the road i take will help me soar even though there are alot of unknown factors and at least i must try out so that at bare minimum i learn something, if good then is good 2)Love---HAHA, nobody believes i have no girlfriend before...DAMN! but in my heart, i always wanted to have someone i can be nice to, no need to be lovey-dovey...JUST SIMPLE LOVE!
Hope i can end 2009 on a high note instead of low note, only 1 person know what this means. Till then...>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>see ya soon>>>>>>over and OUT
