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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Hey, all i wanted is to win the game or at least play properly...i screamed and shouted because the play is too sloppy. I am just directing the play that's all, the only thing that may seem bad is that my voice is loud. Nothing personal against anyone or whatsoever. Is all about the game.
Whatever i say on the court stays there 'coz it only applies to basketball. Yet you wanted to cry about it.
You asked me to guide you in the aspects of play and i did, and you gave me this kind of performance with an answer stating "I dunno what am i doing" "I dun understand what u saying"...
Come on, snap out of this crybaby attitude, how long have you been playing with us or how many times did you asked me what to do? Why does your mind shut off when you make mistakes and when people tries their very best explain to you, you take it so DAMN PERSONAL!
Is just like your badminton, after a mistake, you sit down and ponder over it and ask yourself why. I still make mistakes in this game and i won't deny that some are repeated over and over again. That the philosophy i had about learning. You are making people pissed with the fact you don't want to learn. You are just running away by crying.
You will only improve if you play with your mind open, not closed...keep thinking and keep trying many things while playing. Not just suddenly close it off when something not right happens...if that is so, how do u expect the team to win??
REASON:-
We no longer can pass to you
We no longer have help D
We have less running space cause you are in our way
You simply waste opponents time
I simply don't like to do this at all and why?
REASON:-
People might mis-perceive my actions
I make the mood very heavy
It damn sure kills my playing mood
I don't want people to think that i am acting a big shot in front of everyone to prove my worthiness at the kind of level i m currently in.
That's the kimochi i want to express...lets get on with what went down over last couple plus days.
Fri:- Is been since sep' 06 when i saw huawei and sianghow, long time no see them, all in uni and that joker a**hole of a kevin (mai tu liao, lets chei dai ji) LOL...dinner out at clementi and pool at RC...Pool was as like in the past full of cork stuff...where taunting and disiao-ing is a must. Well is just about the meet-up and short gathering, the pool was just a way to drag the hours...
Sat:- Cousin's wedding...SOP (Standard Operating Procedure) i guess...11 years together with his gf (now-wife) and counting...WOOTS Best part of the day was watching the VCD of the msia chinese while waiting to go over the wedding lunch, it reminds me of the chinese that i used to speak...HAHA (Bu De Kong)
Sun & Mon:- Basketball and basketball (Better dun elaborate 'coz if i do, i might as well put sy's blog template as mine)
Is it just me being sensitive or am i too overly concerned over u feeling down...? why is it that since young just because whenever i hear this words "dun ask me, i am just feeling unhappy", i will start to feel uneasy and have the thoughts that i did not do my part as a friend especially when is someone that maybe i hold a torch for. I know i am not the possessive type, but i just get very jumpy being not able to make my friend happy and in the end while in the name of being concern and cheering my friend up, i "accidentally" annoy him/her. i do apologize if i did whoever you are past or present... :)
I learn many things through the failures and hope to pick up along the way,i know results are there but is taking way too long to materialize.
I wanted to be honest,open and especially courageous to my feelings yet the past will tell me of the losses that i have incurred.Have i really not lose anything by not doing anything?
Well on a high note,the career path for the long-term is being set up for me by many people and maybe taking off soon and that i still need to get thorough this transition period with this vague (close to nothing) result. I thank all those seniors who has been "fighting" for me without me using my diploma and a proper resume. HAHA this is singapore, where in the world can someone land on jobs so easily like me. i am so lucky but the price to pay is commitment and effort.
Speaking of commitment, be it basketball or a girlfriend(trying to jio 1), i always try my very best in training for basketball or getting to know her better with the reason i don't want to let my skills down or hurt the gal just simply cause i don't know her well(this part takes lots of time though,i SWEAR!)
2009 flashbacks made me came up with that much thoughts though i tried to summarise. is a much faster year like what HB said(i agree, ns 2 years feels damn long that anything after ns is juz like jamming the accel of a WRX STi)<---can i have euro-r haha???
514 jan--XF team started, good to see weisheng since 888 feb-may---cork up training,my issues with jiahui and eunice(tears came off since meiqi stunt with darren) june-aug---peaceful months of controlled bball and 3 days of cork driving sept-now---don't care, play my own bball,what is bball with not so cool ppl rite? ^_^ dec----chalet with them,learn dota
Work jan-jul---only 3 big cases with FYC at most avg 950+ had small cases along the way aug-now---admin asst work at sungei kadut --- quite a number of travel sold and done a vehicle(finally after so many quotations) --- finally getting some renewal comm to come in(muz stay on in ins) Though alot of KIV cases, i hope to be able to close them asap if not the $200k FYP might give some problem. But then again,rapport is more important than pushing sales. Just strike a balance
Personal 1) I damn sure need to get back my 2k... 2) I damn sure must give her some breathing space although i can be her side 3) Get rid of the ps3 and get the in-between earnings (YAY!!!!!) 4) I need to take care of my health (Clearing 1,2,3 will help alot though health is top priority ^^ 5) Since somebody mentioned to me that i am a systematic person,prove it through my room
2010 resolutions, I won't be needing them 'coz none has been fulfilled before so therefore i will just use back the old ones.
1)Career--hope the road i take will help me soar even though there are alot of unknown factors and at least i must try out so that at bare minimum i learn something, if good then is good 2)Love---HAHA, nobody believes i have no girlfriend before...DAMN! but in my heart, i always wanted to have someone i can be nice to, no need to be lovey-dovey...JUST SIMPLE LOVE!
Hope i can end 2009 on a high note instead of low note, only 1 person know what this means. Till then...>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>see ya soon>>>>>>over and OUT
